Ray Bradbury. The One Who Waits

                Ray Bradbury
                http://blogs.myspace.com/mysteryal

                The One Who Waits
                1949

     I  live  in  a  well. I live like smoke in the well. Like vapour in a stone
throat.  I  don't  move.  I  don't do anything but wait. Overhead I see the cold
stars of night and morning, and I see the sun. And sometimes I sing old songs of
this  world when it was young. How can I tell you what I am when I don't know? I
cannot.  I am simply waiting. I am mist and moonlight and memory. I am sad and I
am  old. Sometimes I fall like rain into the well. Spider webs are startled into
forming  where  my rain falls fast, on the water surface. I wait in cool silence
and there will be a day when I no longer wait.
     Now  it is morning. I hear a great thunder. I smell fire from a distance. I
hear a metal crashing. I wait. I listen.
     Voices. Far away.
     "All right!"
     One  voice.  An  alien  voice.  An  alien  tongue I cannot know. No word is
familiar. I listen.
     "Send the men out!"
     A crunching in crystal sands.
     "Mars! So this is it!"
     "Where's the flag?"
     "Here, sir."
     "Good, good."
     The  sun  is  high  in the blue sky and its golden rays fill the well and I
hang like a flower pollen, invisible and misting in the warm light.
     Voices.
     "In  the name of the Government of Earth, I proclaim this to be the Martian
Territory, to be equally divided among the member nations."
     What  are they saying? I turn in the sun, like a wheel, invisible and lazy,
golden and tireless.
     "What's over here?"
     "A well!"
     "No!"
     "Come on. Yes!"
     The  approach  of  warmth.  Three  objects bend over the well mouth, and my
coolness rises to the objects.
     "Great!"
     "Think it's good water?"
     "We'll see."
     "Someone get a lab test bottle and a dropline."
     "I will!"
     A sound of running. The return.
     "Here we are."
     I wait.
     "Let it down. Easy."
     Glass shines, above, coming down on a slow line.
     The water ripples softly as the glass touches and fills. I rise in the warm
air toward the well mouth.
     "Here we are. You want to test this water. Regent?"
     "Let's have it."
     "What  a  beautiful  well.  Look at that construction. How old you think it
is?"
     "God  knows.  When  we landed in that other town yesterday Smith said there
hasn't been life on Mars in ten thousand years."
     "Imagine."
     "How is it, Regent? The water."
     "Pure as silver. Have a glass."
     The  sound  of  water  in  the  hot  sunlight.  Now  I hover like a dust, a
cinnamon, upon the soft wind.
     "What's the matter, Jones?"
     "I don't know. Got a terrible headache. All of a sudden."
     "Did you drink the water yet?"
     "No,  I haven't. It's not that. I was just bending over the well and all of
a sudden my head split. I feel better now."
     Now I know who I am.
     My  name is Stephen Leonard Jones and I am twenty-five years old and I have
just  come in a rocket from a planet called Earth and I am standing with my good
friends Regent and Shaw by an old well on the planet Mars.
     I  look  down  at my golden fingers, tan and strong. I look at my long legs
and at my silver uniform and at my friends.
     "What's wrong, Jones?" they say.
     "Nothing," I say, looking at them. "Nothing at all."

    
     The food is good. It has been ten thousand years since food. It touches the
tongue  in  a  fine  way  and the wine with the food is warming. I listen to the
sound of voices. I make words that I do not understand but somehow understand. I
test the air.
     "What's the matter, Jones?"
     I  tilt  this head of mine and rest my hands holding the silver utensils of
eating. I feel everything.
     "What do you mean?" this voice, this new thing of mine, says.
     "You keep breathing funny. Coughing," says the other man.
     I pronounce exactly. "Maybe a little cold coming on."
     "Check with the doc later."
     I  nod my head and it is good to nod. It is good to do several things after
ten thousand years. It is good to breathe the air and it is good to feel the sun
in  the  flesh  deep  and  going  deeper and it is good to feel the structure of
ivory,  the  fine  skeleton  hidden in the warming flesh, and it is good to hear
sounds much clearer and more immediate than they were in the stone deepness of a
well. I sit enchanted.
     "Come out of it, Jones. Snap to it. We got to move!"
     "Yes,"  I  say,  hypnotized  with  the way the word forms like water on the
tongue and falls with slow beauty out into the air.
     I  walk  and  it  is good walking. I stand high and it is a long way to the
ground  when  I  look down from my eyes and my head. It is like living on a fine
cliff and being happy there.
     Regent  stands  by  the  stone  well,  looking  down.  The others have gone
murmuring to the silver ship from which they came.
     I feel the fingers of my hand and the smile of my mouth.
     "It is deep," I say.
     "Yes."
     "It is called a Soul Well."
     Regent raises his head and looks at me. "How do you know that?"
     "Doesn't it look like one?"
     "I never heard of a Soul Well."
     "A  place where waiting things, things that once had flesh, wait and wait,"
I say, touching his arm.

    
     The  sand is fire and the ship is silver fire in the hotness of the day and
the  heat  is good to feel. The sound of my feet in the hard sand. I listen. The
sound  of  the  wind  and  the sun burning the valleys. I smell the smell of the
rocket boiling in the noon. I stand below the port.
     "Where's Regent?" someone says.
     "I saw him by the well," I reply.
     One  of  them  runs  toward  the  well.  I  am beginning to tremble. A fine
shivering tremble, hidden deep, but becoming very strong. And for the first time
I  hear  it, as if it too were hidden in a well. A voice calling deep within me,
tiny  and  afraid.  And  the  voice  cries. Let me go, let me go, and there is a
feeling as if something is trying to get free, a pounding of labyrinthine doors,
a rushing down dark corridors and up passages, echoing and screaming.
     "Regent's in the well!"
     The  men  are  running, all five of them. I run with them but now I am sick
and the trembling is violent.
     "He  must  have  fallen. Jones, you were here with him. Did you see? Jones?
Well, speak up, man."
     "What's wrong, Jones?"
     I fall to my knees, the trembling is so bad.
     "He's sick. Here, help me with him."
     "The sun."
     "No, not the sun," I murmur.
     They  stretch  me out and the seizures come and go like earthquakes and the
deep hidden voice in me cries. This is Jones, this is me, that's not him, that's
not  him,  don't  believe him, let me out, let me out! And I look up at the bent
figures and my eyelids flicker. They touch my wrists.
     "His heart is acting up."
     I close my eyes. The screaming stops. The shivering ceases.
     I rise, as in a cool well, released.
     "He's dead," says someone.
     "Jones is dead."
     "From what?"
     "Shock, it looks like."
     "What  kind  of  shock?"  I  say,  and my name is Sessions and my lips move
crisply,  and I am the captain of these men. I stand among them and I am looking
down at a body which lies cooling on the sands. I clap both hands to my head.
     "Captain!"
     "It's  nothing,"  I  say,  crying out. "Just a headache. I'll be all right.
There. There," I whisper. "It's all right now."
     "We'd better get out of the sun, sir."
     "Yes,"  I  say,  looking  down  at  Jones. "We should never have come. Mars
doesn't want us."
     We  carry  the  body back to the rocket with us, and a new voice is calling
deep in me to be let out.
     Help, help. Far down in the moist earthen-works of the body. Help, help! in
red fathoms, echoing and pleading.
     The trembling starts much sooner this time. The control is less steady.
     "Captain,  you'd  better  get  in  out of the sun, you don't look too well,
sir."
     "Yes," I say. "Help," I say.
     "What, sir?"
     "I didn't say anything."
     "You said 'Help,' sir."
     "Did I, Matthews, did I?"
     The  body  is laid out in the shadow of the rocket and the voice screams in
the  deep underwater catacombs of bone and crimson tide. My hands jerk. My mouth
splits  and  is  parched.  My nostrils fasten wide. My eyes roll. Help, help, oh
help, don't, don't, let me out, don't, don't.
     "Don't," I say.
     "What, sir?"
     "Never  mind,"  I  say. "I've got to get free," I say. I clap my hand to my
mouth.
     "How's that, sir?" cries Matthews.
     "Get inside, all of you, go back to Earth!" I shout.
     A gun is in my hand. I lift it.
     "Don't, sir."
     An  explosion.  Shadows run. The screaming is cut off. There is a whistling
sound of falling through space.
     After  ten  thousand  years,  how  good to die. How good to feel the sudden
coolness,  the  relaxation.  How  good  to  be  like  a hand within a glove that
stretches  out and grows wonderfully cold in the hot sand. Oh, the quiet and the
loveliness of gathering, darkening death. But one cannot linger on.
     A crack, a snap.
     "Good  God,  he's killed himself!" I cry, and open my eyes and there is the
captain  lying against the rocket, his skull split by bullet, his eyes wide, his
tongue  protruding  between his white teeth. Blood runs from his head. I bend to
him and touch him. "The fool," I say. "Why did he do that?"
     The  men  are  horrified.  They  stand over the two dead men and turn their
heads to see the Martian sands and the distant well where Regent lies lolling in
deep  waters.  A  croaking comes out of their dry lips, a whimpering, a childish
protest against this awful dream.
     The men turn to me.
     After a long while, one of them says, "That makes you captain, Matthews."
     "I know," I say slowly.
     "Only six of us left."
     "Good God, it happened so quick!"
     "I don't want to stay here, let's get out!"
     The  men  clamor.  I go to them and touch them now, with a confidence which
almost  sings  in  me.  "Listen," I say, and touch their elbows or their arms or
their hands.
     We all fall silent.
     We are one.
     No,  no,  no,  no,  no,  no!  Inner  voices crying, deep down and gone into
prisons beneath exteriors.
     We  are looking at each other. We are Samuel Matthews and Raymond Moses and
William  Spaulding  and  Charles Evans and Forrest Cole and John Summers, and we
say nothing but look upon each other and our white faces and shaking hands.
     We turn, as one, and look at the well.
     "Now," we say.
     No, no, six voices scream, hidden and layered down and stored forever.
     Our  feet walk in the sand and it is as if a great hand with twelve fingers
were moving across the hot sea bottom.
     We bend to the well, looking down. From the cool depths six faces peer back
up at us.
     One  by one we bend until our balance is gone, and one by one drop into the
mouth and down through cool darkness into the cold waters.
     The  sun sets. The stars wheel upon the night sky. Far out, there is a wink
of light. Another rocket coming, leaving red marks on space.
     I  live  in  a  well.  I  live like smoke in a well. Like vapour in a stone
throat.  Overhead  I see the cold stars of night and morning, and I see the sun.
And  sometimes  I sing old songs of this world when it was young. How can I tell
you what I am when even I don't know? I cannot. I am simply waiting.