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Yesterday, it felt as if I came close to burnout. I didn’t want to watch videos to continue my research on public speaking. I didn’t want to learn anything. I had a little headache, and it was difficult to think in English. There were the thoughts that I had many times before: I’m tired; I can’t relax; there is no way to get rest if I always think in English; I need to get rest, so what should I do? Out of two alternatives—playing video games and watching movies—I chose the latter.
There should be a way to get rest without diverging too much from the main activities. I wanna stick to the plan. I don’t wanna lose any of the projects I’m currently working on. I can slow down and watch one video a day instead of four, but shifting to something else shouldn’t be an option. I must recover my ability to work on long, profound talks, getting fully immersed in them. I wanna dive into reading and watching different courses of lectures. I’m tired of going from one thing to another. I miss the times when I read for weeks without turning on the computer. All this social activity over the past four years has made me quite superficial. Even though I do a lot of work and practice all sorts of exercises on a daily basis, it feels as if I weren’t going anywhere compared to what I felt back in the days when I read Kant or Sextus Empiricus.
Spent half of the day helping X distribute advertisements. He paid me 1,000 rub. Besides, we had a long conversation. I told him about those communication elements I learned recently and encouraged him to use them while practicing his English.
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