"Approximately year ago I posted add on CL classified under "casual encounters"... You responded it next morning (that was Monday) probably driven by the morning erection, and I deleted the post shortly after that as working week had it demands and there was no time to sort out Internet flood... We set up the date to meet coming Wednesday, that was April's Fools day in place X (probably you favorite place for those purposes)
Around 11 am plus we reconfirmed, by appointed time you never showed up (for good 45 minutes), then when I was driving back to work, sent me an email offering to call you and when I did not, said that you have bad luck with women :-) Ha ha!.. In May you responded some of my other adds online, and when I acknowledged the fact that it would be hard for you to find a proper woman, you told that there are attractive and charismatic young ladies available (probably your dating was going well that period of time but you still was working on expanding the network :-) Well, as life was rotating its wind mills, you posted something mid summer that I responded (was offering to meet at the casino) and we set up Friday morning for meeting at your place (as we did)... I was touched by your pleasant emotional shyness that's rare in the modern days, and our first kiss make me feel like... hmmmm 16 y old on the wild strawberry glade... Thank you for that... I tuned myself to open up my energetic center before you got inside me, as I was blocking it for my reasons for couple years... Well, first time is like a draft, shows other's side highlights. You definitely knew women's body and that's unique and rare indeed :-) I mindread your shower of emotional needs for love and belonging for a moment, then "stalked" you with my emails for the next months or so, and getting no specific agendas, distracted my sexual self on the other objects: rule of displacement... In October we again crossed our paths, probably you was overstressed with your parental caregiving tasks and I was easy maintenance object that did not require time of courtship, etc... Well, it is what it is, life dictates our models of behavior and we all can be different at different times. Probably you would agree that our hour meeting in October would be something to remember before we all die, women usually keep such jewels in the treasure box of memories and hide it even from themselves (sorry if I have hard times to express feelings, decoding them to common language... ) Well, it definitely challenged me for a good while, as probably affected you too. At times I dropped you couple lines of emails when I felt like it, never getting any reflections back till you popped up 3,5 month after, responding on my new CL post. Probably you knew my style, that's why sent your face and privates picture with the first email. It was weird to get in touch with you at that moment, especially hearing that you had deep emotional connection during our last time. My mind was sorting out bulk of responses and was in the other mode... Well, I showed you numerous times before and after that I was interested in meeting you again and was flexible to adjust to your convenience but picked up that you had other agendas, goals and plans and... decided to make closure in my mind by writing that fragment year after our first swap of emails. To me its good to know that my sexual imprint (stereotype one is attracted to with appealing mind/body/soul) exists in the real measurement of time and driving proximity. I wish I could staged it back in time and sent us both to role play it as it would be centuries ago on the green grass in simplistic rural life style, just a girl and boy with no social attributes, to frame it as a picture and put it on the wall... P.S. Hope you like my storytelling improvisation. Be well! Will be thinking of you!.."