You're in the darkness.So weak and insecure.Why do you feel this?What for are you here?
You just go far and far away from the light.Do you think darkness will help you?Will it make you feel okay?
Surely no...and soon you understand it,collapse and just sob on the floor.Tears.Powerless.
Faces of people in your mind.People which you have Loved so much.Those who are gone and those who are still there,with you.It makes you cry more...it hurts you so much.And the worst feeling is that weakness even to stand up and continue to go.Like you have no place to go to...Like no one is waiting for you anywhere.And you think and think.Eyes are closed-darkness,eyes are opened-darkness.You need light.
Sigh.No one around.Only you.One.You feel pain,head hurts but thoughts are running so fast.You need a hug from someone and then you think about the person you want to give you a hug.You sort people in your head.No one.None of them will take it away.It will make only worse,you will cry harder.
What's the reason of it?Just the fuck what.
You remember Him.You pray for people which are being in your life.You ask to save them,you ask not to take them into the heaven soon.You need them.You don't wanna lose them.You ask Him to take away this weakness,you wanna calm down.
Quiet breathe.Warmth.You feel He's here,listening,understanding.He want you to know He will never leave.And you believe.He never lied to you.
Eyes are closed...you see pictures of Lovely people.You feel how all of them are still with you,laughing.
Darkness everywhere...light inside you and your memories.He will never leave.
And you.
Hold on your faith.