We were drinking hard after a mission once... and we were joking and drinking ... and Hoss said " all i know is the tool always starts the killing " thats' me Tuli .... the tool ... may be so my childhood .. who knows ... ? may be it is easier for me to pull the trigger ... can you imagine desperately jamming shells into a hot weapon completely surrounded by the enemy ... and then fighting your way out? i mean not like shooting at the jungle and leaves .. i mean a weapon and shooting someone .., face to face ... he dies... you live ... i still wash my hands all day long i still have night mares ... i still live there ... in the time ... but it,s kinda funny now that i remember Hoss saying " The tool always starts the killing " ...
... one time our comrad was captured and we could see him and a gook had a knife at his throat ... and i couldnt use my browning or kill them both ... and i was a terrible shot with my makharov .. and as we crouched in the jungle my friend Les handed me his M-14 .. he knew i would take the shot ... not him ... not anyone else ... he knew i would take the shot .. so i shot that gook right square in the head ... but of course a firefight errupted and that boy was killed ... but i remember most is Les handing me his rifle ... he had ultimate confidence in me ... Les knew i wouldn,t miss ... but of course everything turned ti shit ... but i made the shot ... HA !!!!