Cameras...so many? Oh? God...yes...I'm here smiling....looking like a good
model....good? What for? And I see Steven Godon - a body movements analist...say.. if I
put my foot a bit further making my dress go up? Too sexual? Or what? He'll definitely
tell the readers I'm trying to hide my feelings... a sort of being scared of... god
knows what. Stupid! I got Oscar for that movie... and now... they see a pig
flying... Never felt so humiliated with that hairdo for 500$ and a specially cut dress
made of fabric I was looking for the last three weeks... how much did it cost? - Money
is trash... and what is not? ... oh, please, be a good girl!!! Now! Hear? OK, I
remember "Do what they expect or... even better... what they do not! With elegance,
dignity and self-respect. Make them feel you love them and you are going to show a bit
of yourself... and your body..."
When I took that role I knew it was mine. Not that I could be the best in acting but
I would be comfy as it was in tune with my inner self... yes... what I really
experienced or... dreamed of...
Well... I got Oscar...they liked my acting? ... or they liked me? Or both? When I
was little my Mum used to say "Be a good girl!" It only meant I'll find a nice candy
in the box later... Now "Be a good girl|" means somebody else will get sweet watching
TV, videos or reading newspaper articles... and I have to work a bit for that... Movie
star!
...night... with innumerable stars shining... in the sky... so dark... Star?! Now
yes... and I am not only shining... I wish they could smell my exclusive perfume
arrived last night from Paris... I did my best! And all they expect from the star. A
slight reminder of my part in that movie... and of me in a real life!
... so awkward, disgustful...
Where's that box on the shelf? A candy for me! I'm dying for it! I AM a good girl!