This everything about me I have remembered this moment. I know you maybe will never understand what i write because i don’t know how to say that on english but i try to write as i can about my life. And thanks to god that every thing i have write it frome the past my live now not this bad i’m just have small problems.
At the first when I was small I mean just 2 or three years my family economic. State was so bad I have so sad childs days I remember many thing. When I was stop eating because I want to my small sister eat more. When I was my big dream to get ball it's cost half dollar and I get the ball in the end but after 1 month.
And I remember that hard winter when me and sister was feel cold because my father wasn't have enough money to buy coat to us and we get coat but at half of the winter. I don't want to remember those days because its make me cry.
When I was 8 year our economic state was better some thing than last.
When I was 12 year I start work.
At 14 it's was the must hard year on me. I was love one girl that girl I was told you about her that she die. I was lie she's not die. I will tell you now everything about her.
I was know her from the school. She was the most beautiful girl in the school and she was so rich girl. Every guy at the school was dream talk with her. I try talk with her and she said she love me from long time and she was don't know how to say that to me. I was love her so much she was the first girl I love but after 1 year she said forgive me you not good to talk with you don't have enough money to buy little present to me. Little present to her mean about 500$ all I was get from my work in month about 75$. She was know that she want rich guy not like me. Ohh that moment was destroyed me when I was look to her eyes like stupid I don't know what I said I wasn't have any words. I don't think her this bad. She said she don't want talk with me again and go also without say bye.
After that her friend was want me love her I told her I was just love your friend and I don't love you. You just friend and when she feel that she can't make me love her. She talk to her uncle and said to his that I'm always walk behind her and I say bad things about her she was lie. He crazy he was big man and he play body building. He come to my house was 20 mens. They was hit me. My sister and my mother was cry. Our neighbor wife was cry on me too our other neighbor was so old man he said to him that me just small child how you hit small child.
My father was at work he come after 1/4 hour they was still hit me. I was think that my father will be on my side I know he can't fight all this guys. But I wish that he say any thing the guys go and he start hit me too I swear I don't say anything about this girl. Our neighbor fights with my father and say to my father about me he just child. Our neighbor believe me and my father not. At that time I hate my father but. Now I have forgive his. He still my father and I can't hate any one I don't know why. That was the saddest day on my live.
After that I was want play (kong foo) it's kind of fight sport I was work a lot to get the money for the sport club and my study was gone bad. I was the first in my class but after that story I gone bad student I wasn't have time to play sport and work and study. Everything was thing on it that time is to kill uncle of that fucking girl. After 2 years of sport I was ready to fight I was fight about 10 guy and they couldn't win on me. In that time I was going to kill uncle of that girl. But my friend catch me and said I was your friend when we was 8 age. I will never let you do this crazy work. He said you destroyed yourself if you do that you will go to jail you will be criminal I will not let you do that. But I was crazy I said no I will kill him. He said no if you want kill him you must kill me at the first and he take the gun from me I was get it to kill that person in her head and say you must kill me at first you my best friend and I will never let you be criminal. In that moment I just cry and said you really my best friend I will never lose you. For my last angre I will try forget that problem I promise you. He smile and said this is my favorite friend that was protect me when I was small when the other children fight with me. At that moment I smile and I said I was protect you from small problems and you protect me now from being criminal. Thank you my friend. At that time I was 17 year I leave the sport club it's was cost a lot I find another work that don't take a lot time and get the same salary I was work on holding. Big things I don't know how to say that in English I was hold about 3000 kg on day I was the smallest person how work in that work but my body was strong alot from the sport and I start play some sports in the home and again I be good student I was have enough time to study with that new work I know it's hard work but I wasn't care I think the god help me I wasn't feel tired from that work.
Now our family economic stat gone better a lot than past. But the live in my country so bad my father is doctor from 23 year and our life still normal. I will leave my country when I compute my study that after 1 year I can't live here the live so bad. Every guy here think on leaving this country. Here the best work I have worked on import/export Company as accountant. My salary was 140 $ on month but the company move to another city and I have no work now I search for work I don't find good work from 3 week I search now for work maybe I will get another work on the next week the company my friend work for it need accountant. And my another friend he work on design say the office it work for it need graphic designer. I think I will work as graphic designer its best than accountant they have better salary.
I need enough money to leave my country after complete my study and when i travel I will work hard to go to you my angel. I will tell you some thing I fright from it now. I fried from you leaving me like my past love. Honey you still rich girl. I'm now not poor I'm normal. And I fright from another thing. I fried on you from me from my life. It was so sad and until now it's sad something. I fright on you from being sad. You have good live and I think it happy. I don't want spoilt it. I life to make you happy I don't want wipe your nice smile. Honey when you feel that I make you sad you can leave me but say that to me first because it's will be hard on me to leave me without any word.
I will never forgave myself if i make you sad. Sweetheart you the only reason of my live I want make you happy and protect you from everything you fright from it. I'm now strong a lot the life learn me a lot but I don't know way when I am with you I feel myself so weak it's the power of love it's could make every body. Weak. I love you. The crazy on you. Honey try to write to me something about your life. I don't know i feel you hide somethings on me. Honey just open your heart to me and say anything about you. Anything you fright from it I will try help you as I can and please say any word about what you feel about me really because when you say you love me I forget every sad moment I was have I'm being so happy
If you don't know how to say that in English you can write it on Russian I will translate it. I love you so much. I will never forget you all my life my angel.