Ray Bradbury. Perchance to Dream. Asleep in Armage

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                Ray Bradbury
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                Perchance to Dream (Asleep in Armageddon)
                1948

     You don't want death and you don't expect death. Something goes wrong, your
rocket tilts in space, a planetoid jumps up, blackness, movement, hands over the
eyes, a violent pulling back of available powers in the forejets, the crash.
     The  darkness.  In  the  darkness,  the  senseless  pain.  In the pain, the
nightmare.
     He was not unconscious.
     Your  name?  asked  hidden  voices.  Sale,  he  replied in whirling nausea.
Leonard  Sale.  Occupation?  cried the voices. Space man! he cried, alone in the
night. Welcome, said the voices. Welcome, welcome. They faded.
     He  stood  up  in  the wreckage of his ship. It lay like a folded, tattered
garment around him.
     The sun rose and it was morning.
     Sale  prised  himself out of the small airlock and stood breathing heavily.
Luck.  Sheer  luck.  His  suit was intact; his oxygen breathable. A few minutes'
checking showed him he had two months' supply of oxygen and food. Fine! And this
- he prowled through the wreckage. Miracle of miracles! The radio was intact.
     He  shuttered out the message on the sending key. CRASHED ON PLANETOID 787.
SALE. HELP. SALE. HELP.
     Minutes  passed;  the  reply came: HELLO, SALE. THIS IS ADDAMS IN MARSPORT.
SENDING RESCUE SHIP LOGARITHM. WILL ARRIVE PLANETOID 787 SIX DAYS. HANG ON.
     Sale did a little dance.
     It  was  simple  as  that. One crashed. One had food. One radioed for help.
Help came. Voila! he shouted.
     The sun rose and was warm. He felt no sense of mortality. Six days would be
no  time  at all. He would eat, he would read, he would sleep. He glanced at his
surroundings.  No  dangerous animals; a tolerable oxygen supply. What more could
one ask? Beans and bacon, was the answer. He touched the machinery in his helmet
that popped food into his mouth.
     After  breakfast  he smoked a cigarette slowly, deeply, blowing out through
the  special  helmet  tube. He nodded contentedly. What a life! Not a scratch on
him. Luck, sheer luck!
     His head nodded. Sleep, he thought.
     Good  idea.  Forty  winks. Plenty of time to sleep, take it easy. Six whole
long, luxurious days of idling and philosophizing. Sleep.
     He  stretched  himself  out,  tucked  his  arm under his head, and shut his
eyes.

    
     Insanity came in to take him. The voices whispered.
     Sleep, yes, sleep, said the voices. Ah, sleep, sleep.
     He opened his eyes. The voices stopped. Everything was normal. He shrugged.
He shut his eyes casually, fitfully. He settled his long body.
     Eeeeeeeeeeee, sang the voices far away.
     Ahhhhhhhhh, sang the voices.
     Sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sang the voices.
     Die, die, die, die, die, sang the voices.
     Oooooooooooo, cried the voices.
     Mmmmmmmmmnwimmmmnmimmm, a bee ran through his brain.
     He  sat  up. He shook his head. He blinked at the crashed ship. Hard metal.
He  felt  the solid rock under his fingers. He saw the real sun warming the blue
sky.
     Let's try sleeping on our back, he thought. He adjusted himself, lying back
down. His watch ticked on his wrist. The blood burned in his veins.
     Sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sang the voices.
     Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh, sang the voices.
     Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh, sang the voices.
     Die,  die, die, die, die. Sleep, sleep, die, sleep, die, sleep, die! Oohhh.
Ahhhh. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
     Blood tapped in his ears. The sound of the wind rising.
     Mine, mine, said a voice. Mine, mine, he's mine; he's mine!
     No mine, mine, said another voice. No, mine, mine, he's mine!
     No, ours, ours, sang ten voices. Ours, ours, he's ours!
     His fingers twitched. His jaws spasmed. His eyelids jerked.
     At  last, at last, sang a high voice. Now, now. The long time, the waiting.
Over, over, sang the high voice. Over, over at last!
     It was like being undersea. Green songs, green visions, green time. Bubbled
voices drowning in deep liquors of sea tide. Faraway choruses chanting senseless
rhymes. Leonard Sale stirred in agony.
     Mine,  mine,  cried a loud voice. Mine, mine! shrieked another. Ours, ours,
shrieked the chorus.
     The  din of metal, the crash of sword, the conflict, the battle, the fight,
the war. All of it exploding, his mind fiercely torn apart.
     Eeeeeeeeee!
     He leaped up, screaming. The landscape melted and flowed.
     A  voice  said,  "I  am  Tylle of Rathalar. Proud Tylle, Tylle of the Blood
Mound and the Death Drum. Tylle of Rathalar, Killer of Men!"
     Another spoke, "I am Iorr of Wendillo, Wise Iorr. Destroyer of Infidels!"
     The chorus chanted. "And we the warriors, we the steel, we the warriors, we
the red blood rushing, the red blood falling, the red blood steaming m the sun -
"
     Leonard Sale staggered under the burden. "Go away!" he cried. "Leave me, in
God's name, leave me!"
     Eeeeeee, shrieked the high sound of steel hot on steel.
     Silence.
     He  stood  with the sweat boiling out of him. He was trembling so violently
he  could  not  stand.  Insane,  he  thought.  Absolutely insane. Raving insane.
Insane!
     He jerked the food kit open, did something to a chemical packet. Hot coffee
was  ready  in  an  instant.  He mouthed it through the helmet tube greedily. He
shivered. He sucked in raw gulps of breath.
     Let's  be  logical, he thought, sitting down heavily. The coffee seared his
tongue.  No record of insanity in the family for two hundred years. All healthy,
well-balanced.  No  reason  for  insanity now. Shock? Silly. No shock. I'm to be
rescued  in  six  days. No shock to that. No danger. Just an ordinary planetoid.
Ordinary, ordinary; ordinary place. No reason for insanity. I'm sane.
     Oh? cried a small metal voice within. An echo. Fading.
     "Yes!" he cried, beating his fists together. "Sane!"
     Hahhahhahhahhahhahhahhah. Somewhere a vanishing laughter.
     He whirled about. "Shut up, you!" he cried.
     We  didn't  say  anything, said the mountains. We didn't say anything, said
the sky. We didn't say anything, said the wreckage.
     "All right then," he said, swaying. "See that you don't."
     Everything was normal.

    
     The  pebbles  were  getting hot. The sky was big and dark. He looked at his
fingers  and  saw  the  way the sun burned on every black hair. He looked at his
boots  and  the  dust  on  them.  Suddenly  he felt very happy because he made a
decision.  I won't go to sleep, he thought. I'm having nightmares, so why sleep?
There's your solution.
     He made a routine. From nine o'clock in the morning, which was this minute,
until  twelve,  he  would walk around and see the planetoid. He would write on a
pad  with  a  yellow pencil everything he saw. Then he would sit down and open a
can  of  oily  sardines, and some canned fresh bread with good butter on it, and
pass  it  in through the helmet airlocks. From twelve-thirty until four he would
read  nine  chapters  of  War and Peace. He took the book from the wreckage, and
laid  it where he might find it later. There was a book of T. S. Eliot's poetry,
too. That might be nice.
     Supper  would  come  at  five-thirty  and  then from six until ten he would
listen to the radio from Earth. There would be a couple of bad comedians telling
jokes  and a bad singer singing some songs, and the latest news flashes, signing
off at midnight with the U.N. anthem.
     After that?
     He felt sick.
     I'll play solitaire until dawn, he thought. I'll sit up and drink hot black
coffee and play solitaire, no cheating, until sunrise.
     Ho, ho, he thought.
     "What did you say?" he asked himself, aloud.
     "I said 'Ha ha'," he replied. "Some time, you'll have to sleep."
     "I'm wide awake," he said.
     "Liar!" he retorted, enjoying the conversation.
     "I feel fine," he said.
     "Hypocrite," he replied.
     "I'm not afraid of the night or sleep or anything," he said.
     "Very funny," he said.
     He  felt  bad. He wanted to sleep. And the fact that he was afraid of sleep
made  him  want  to  lie  down  all  the  more  and  shut  his eyes and curl up.
"Comfy-cosy?" asked his ironic censor.
     "I'll  just  walk  and  look at the rocks and the geological formations and
think how good it is to be alive," he said.
     "Ye gods!" cried his censor. "William Saroyan!"
     You'll  go  on,  he thought, maybe one day, maybe one night, but what about
the  next night and the next and the next? Can you stay awake all that time, for
six nights? Until the rescue ship comes? Are you that good, that strong?
     The answer was no.
     What  are you afraid of? I don't know. Those voices. Those sounds. But they
can't hurt you - can they?
     They  might. You've got to face them some time. Must I? Brace up to it, old
man. Chin up, and all that rot.
     He  sat  down on the hard ground. He felt very much like crying. He felt as
if  life  was  over and he was entering new and unknown territory. It was such a
deceiving  day,  with the sun warm; physically, he felt able and well, one might
fish  on such a day as this, or pick flowers or kiss a woman or anything. But in
the midst of a lovely day, what did one get?
     Death.
     Well, hardly that.
     Death, he insisted.
     He lay down and closed his eyes. He was tired of messing around.
     All  right,  he thought, if you are death, come get me. I want to know what
all this nonsense is about.
     Death came.

    
     Eeeeeeeeeeeee, said a voice.
     Yes, I know, said Leonard Sale, lying there. But what else?
     Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, said a voice.
     I  know that, also, said Leonard Sale, irritably. He turned cold. His mouth
hung open wildly.
     "I am Tylle of Rathalar, Killer of Men!"
     "I am Iorr of Wendillo, Destroyer of Infidels!"
     What is this place? asked Leonard Sale, struggling against horror.
     "Once  a mighty planet!" said Tylle of Rathalar. "Once a place of battles!"
said Iorr of Wendillo.
     "Now dead," said Tylle.
     "Now silent," said Ion.
     "Until you came," said Tylle.
     "To give us life again," said Iorr.
     You're  dead,  insisted  Leonard  Sale,  flesh writhing. You're nothing but
empty wind.
     "We live, through you."
     "And fight, through you!"
     So that's it, thought Leonard Sale. I'm to be a battleground, am I? Are you
friends?
     "Enemies!" cried Iorr.
     "Foul enemies!" cried Tylle.

    
     Leonard  smiled  a rictal smile. He felt ghastly. How long have you waited?
he damanded.
     "How  long  is  rime?"  Ten  thousand  years? "Perhaps." Ten million years?
"Perhaps."
     What  are  you?  Thoughts,  spirits,  ghosts?  "All  of  those,  and more."
Intelligence? "Precisely." How did you survive?
     Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee, sang the chorus, far away.
     Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, sang another army, waiting to fight.
     "Once upon a time, this was fertile land, a rich planet. And there were two
nations,  strong  nations,  led by two strong men. I, Ioir. And he, that one who
calls  himself  Tylle.  And the planet declined and gave way to nothingness. The
peoples  and  the armies languished in the midst of a great war which had lasted
five thousand years. We lived long lives and loved long loves, drank much, slept
much,  fought  much. And when the planet died, our bodies withered, and, only in
time, and with much science, did we survive."
     Survive, wondered Leonard Sale. But there is nothing of you!
     "Our minds, fool, our minds! What is a body without a mind?"
     What  is  a  mind without a body, laughed Leonard Sale. I've got you there.
Admit it, I've got you!
     "True,"  said  the  cruel  voice.  "One  is useless, lacking the other. But
survival  is  survival  even when unconscious. The minds of our nations, through
science, through wonder, survived."
     But without senses, lacking eyes, ears, lacking touch, smell, and the rest?
"Lacking all those, yes. We were vapours, merely. For a long time. Until today."
     And  now  I  am here, thought Leonard Sale. "You are here," said the voice.
"To give substance to our souls. To give us our needed body."
     I'm only one, thought Sale. "Nevertheless, you are of use."
     I'm an individual, thought Sale. I resent your intrusion.
     "He resents our intrusion! Did you heard him, Iorr? He resents!"
     "As if he had a right to resent!"
     Be  careful,  warned Sale. I'll blink my eyes and you'll be gone, phantoms!
I'll wake up and rub you out!
     "But  you'll have to sleep again, 5owe time!" cried Iorr. "And when you do,
we'll be here, waiting, waiting, waiting. For you."
     What  do  you  want? "Solidity. Mass. Sensation again!" You can't both have
it. "We'll fight that out between us."
     A  hot  clamp  twisted  his skull. It was as if a spike had been thrust and
beaten down between the bivalvular halves of his brain.
     Now  he  was  terribly  clear.  Horribly, magnificently clear. He was their
universe.  The  world  of  his  thoughts, his brain, his skull, divided into two
camps, that of Iorr, that of Tylle. They were using him!
     Pennants  flung  up  on a pink mind sky! Brass shields caught the sun. Grey
animals  shifted  and  came  rushing  in  bristling tides of sword and plume and
trumpet.
     Eeeeeeeeeeeee! The rushing.
     Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! The roaring.
     Nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! The whirling.
     Mmmmmnmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm-
     Ten  thousand  men  hurled  across the small hidden stage. Ten thousand men
floated  on  the  shellacked inner ball of his eye. Ten thousand javelins hissed
between  the  small bone hulls of his head. Ten thousand jewelled guns exploded.
Ten  thousand  voices  chanted in his ears. Now his body was riven and extended,
shaken  and  rolled,  he  was  screaming,  writhing,  the  plates  of  his skull
threatened  to burst asunder. The gabbling, the shrilling, as across bone plains
of  mind  and  continent of inner marrow, through gullies of vein, down hills of
artery, over rivers of melancholy, came armies and armies, one army, two armies,
swords  flashed  in  the sun, bearing down upon each other, fifty thousand minds
snatching,  scrabbling,  cutting at him, demanding, using. In a moment, the hard
collision,  one  army  on another, the rush, the blood, the sound, the fury, the
death, the insanity!
     Like cymbals, the armies struck!
     He  leaped up, raving. He ran across the desert. He ran and ran and did not
stop running.
     He  sat down and cried. He sobbed until his lungs ached. He cried very hard
and  long.  Tears  ran down his cheeks. "God, God, help me, oh God, help me!" he
said.
     All was normal again.
     It  was  four o'clock in the afternoon. The rocks were baked by the sun. He
managed,  after  a  time,  to cook himself a few hot biscuits, which he ate with
strawberry jam.
     "At  least  I know what I'm up against," he told himself. "Oh, Lord, what a
world!  What  an  innocent-looking  world, and what a monster it really is. It's
good  no  one  ever  explored it before. Or did they?" He shook his aching head.
Pity  them,  whoever crashed here before, if any ever did. Warm sun, hard rocks,
not a sign of hostility.
     Until you shut your eyes and relaxed your mind.
     And  the  night  and the voices and the insanity and the death padded in on
soft feet.
     "I'm all right now, though," he said, proudly. "Look at that." He displayed
his  hand. By a supreme effort of will, it was no longer shaking. "I'll show you
who  in  hell's ruler here," he announced to the innocent sky. "I am!" He tapped
his chest.
     To  think  that thought could live that long! A million years, perhaps, all
these thoughts of death and disorder and conquest, lingering in the innocent but
poisonous  air  of  the  planet,  waiting  for a real man to give them a channel
through which they might issue again in all their senseless virulence.
     Now  that  he  was  feeling  better, it was all silly. All I have to do, he
thought,  is  stay  awake  six  nights.  They won't bother me that way. When I'm
awake,  I'm  dominant.  I'm  stronger  than those crazy monarchs and their silly
tribes of sword-flingers and shield-bearers and horn-blow-ers. I'll stay awake.
     But can you? he wondered. Six whole nights? Awake?
     There's coffee and medicine and books and cards.
     But I'm tired now, so tired, he thought. Can I hold out?
     Well, if not - there's always the gun.
     Where will these silly monarchs be if you put a bullet through their stage?
All  the  world's  a stage. No. You, Leonard Sale, are the small stage. And they
the  players.  And  what  if  you  put  a bullet through the wings, tearing down
scenes,  destroying curtains, ruining lines! Destroy the stage" the players, all
if they aren't careful!
     First  of  all,  he must radio through to Marsport, again. If there was any
way they could rush the rescue ship sooner, then maybe he could hang on. Anyway,
he must warn them what sort of planet this was, this so innocent-seeming spot of
nightmare and fever vision -
     He tapped on the radio key for a minute. His mouth tightened. The radio was
dead.
     It  had  sent through the proper rescue message, received a reply, and then
extinguished itself.
     The proper touch of irony, he thought. There was only one thing to do. Draw
a plan.
     This  he  did.  He  got  a yellow pencil and delineated his six-day plan of
escape.
     Tonight,  he wrote, read six more chapters of War and Peace. At four in the
morning have hot black coffee. At four-fifteen take cards from pack and play ten
games  of  solitaire.  This  should take until six-thirty when - more coffee. At
seven  o'clock,  listen to early morning programmes from Earth, if the receiving
equipment on the radio works at all. Does it?
     He tried the radio receiver. It was dead.
     Well,  he  wrote,  from  seven  o'clock until eight, sing all the songs you
remember,  make  your own entertainment. From eight until nine think about Helen
King. Remember Helen. On second thought, think about Helen right now.
     He marked that out with his pencil.
     The rest of the days were set down in minute detail.
     He  checked  the  medical  kit.  There were several packets of tablets that
would  keep you awake. One tablet an hour every hour for six days. He felt quite
confident.
     "Here's mud in your evil eye, Iorr, Tylle!"
     He  swallowed  one of the stay-awake tablets with a scalding mouth of black
coffee.

    
     Well,  with  one  thing  and  another  it was Tolstoy or Balzac, gin-rummy,
coffee,  tablets,  walking,  more  Tolstoy,  more  Balzac,  more gin-rummy, more
solitaire. The first day passed, as did the second and the third.
     On  the  fourth  day  he  lay quietly in the shade of a rock, counting to a
thousand  by  fives, then by tens, to keep his mind occupied and awake. His eyes
were  so  tired he had to bathe them frequently in cool water. He couldn't read,
he  was bothered with splitting headaches. He was so exhausted he couldn't move.
He  was  numb  with  medicine. He resembled a waxen dummy stuffed with things to
preserve  him  in  a  state  of  horrified wakefulness. His eyes were glass, his
tongue  a  rusted  pike,  his fingers felt as if they were gloved in needles and
fur.
     He followed the hand of his watch. One second less to wait, he thought. Two
seconds,  three seconds, four, five, ten, thirty seconds. A whole minute. Now an
hour less time to wait. Oh, ship, hurry on thy appointed round!
     He began to laugh softly.
     What would happen if he just gave up, drifted off into sleep?
     Sleep,  ah,  sleep; perchance to dream. All the world a stage... What if he
gave up the unequal struggle, lapsed down?
     Eeeeeeeeeeee, the high, shrill warning sound of battle metal.
     He shivered. His tongue moved in his dry, burry mouth.
     Iorr and Tylle would battle out their ancient battle.
     Leonard Sale would become quite insane.
     And  whichever  won  the  battle would take this ruin of an insane man, the
shaking,  laughing  wild  body,  and wander it across the face of this world for
ten,  twenty years, occupying it, striding in it, pompous, holding court, making
grand gestures, ordering heads severed, calling on inward, unseen dancing girls.
Leonard  Sale, what remained of him, would be led off to some hidden cave, there
to be infested with ware and worms of wars for twenty insane years, occupied and
prostituted by old and outlandish thoughts.
     When  the  rescue  ship arrived it would find nothing. Sale would be hidden
somewhere by a triumphant army in his head. Hidden in some cleft of rock, placed
there like a nest for Iorr to lie upon in evil occupation.
     The thought of it almost broke him in half.
     Twenty  years  of  insanity.  Twenty years of torture, doing what you don't
want  to  do. Twenty years of wars raging and being split apart, twenty years of
nausea and trembling.
     His head sank down between his knees. His eyes snapped and cracked and made
soft noises. His eardrum popped tiredly.
     Sleep, sleep, sang soft sea voices.
     I'll - I'll make a proposition with you, listen, thought Leonard Sale. You,
Iorr,  you,  too.  Ту  lie!  Iorr, you can occupy me on Mondays, Wednesdays, and
Fridays.  Tylle,  you  can  take  me  over  on  Sundays, Tuesdays, and Saturday.
Thursday is maid's night out. Okay?
     Eeeeeeeeeee, sang the sea tides, seething in his brain.
     Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, sang the distant voices softly, soft.
     What'll you say, is it a bargain, Iorr, Tylle?
     No, said a voice.
     No, said another.
     Greedy, both of you, greedy! complained Sale. A pox on both your houses!
     He slept.
     He  was  Iorr,  jewelled rings on his hands. He arose beside his rocket and
held  out  his  fingers,  commanding blind armies. He was Iorr, ancient ruler of
jewelled warriors.
     He was Tylle, lover of women, killer of dogs!
     With  some  hidden  bit  of awareness, his hand crept to the holster at his
hip. The sleeping hand withdrew the gun there. The hand lifted, the gun pointed.
     The armies of Tylle and Iorr gave battle.
     The gun exploded.
     The bullet tore across Sale's forehead, awakening him.
     He  stayed  awake  for another six hours, getting over his latest seige. He
knew  it  to  be  hopeless  now.  He  washed and bandaged the wound he had given
himself.  He  wished he had aimed straighter and it was all over. He watched the
sky.  Two  more  days.  Two  more.  Come  on,  ship,  come on. He was heavy with
sleeplessness.
     No use. At the end of six hours he was raving badly. He took the gun up and
put it down and took it up again, put it against his head, tightened his hand on
the trigger, changed his mind, looked at the sky again.
     Night  settled.  He  tried  to read, threw the book away. He tore it up and
burned it, just to have something to do.
     So  tired.  In  another  hour,  he  decided.  If nothing happens, I'll kill
myself. This is for certain now. I'll do it, this time.
     He got the gun ready and laid it on the ground next to himself.
     He  was very calm now, though tired. It would be over and done. He would be
dead.
     He  watched  the  minute  hand  of  his  watch.  One  minute, five minutes,
twenty-five minutes.
     The flame appeared on the sky.
     It was so unbelievable he started to cry.
     "A  rocket,"  he said, standing up. "A rocket!" he cried, rubbing his eyes.
He ran forward.
     The flame brightened, grew, came down.
     He  waved  frantically,  running  forward,  leaving  his gun, his supplies,
everything behind. "You see that, Iorr, Tylle! You savages, you monsters, I beat
you! I won! They're coming to rescue me now! I've won, damn you!"
     He laughed harshly at the rocks and the sky and the backs of his hands.
     The  rocket landed. Leonard Sale stood swaying, waiting for the door to lid
open.
     "Good-bye,  Iorr,  good-bye,  Tylle!" he shouted in triumph, grinning, eyes
hot.
     Eeeeeee, sang a diminishing roar in time.
     Ahhhhhhhh, voices faded.
     The rocket flipped wide its airlock. Two men jumped out.
     "Sale?"  they  called. "We're Ship ACDN13. Intercepted your SOS and decided
to  pick  you  up ourselves. The Marsport ship won't get through until day after
tomorrow.  We  want  a spot of rest ourselves. Thought it'd be good to spend the
night here, pick you up, and go op."
     "No," said Sale, face melting with terror. "No spend night -"
     He couldn't talk. He fell to the ground.
     "Quick!"  said  a voice, in the bleary vortex over him. "Give him a shot of
food liquid, another of sedative. He needs sustenance and rest."
     "No rest!" screamed Sale.
     "Delirious," said one man, softly.
     "No sleep!" screamed Sale.
     "There, there," said the man gently. A needle poked into Sale's arm.
     Sale thrashed. "No sleep, go!" he mouthed horribly. "Oh, go!"
     "Delirious," said one man. "Shock."
     "No sedatives!" screamed Sale.
     The sedative flowed into him.
     Eeeeeeeee, sang the ancient winds.
     Ahhhhhhhhhh, sang the ancient seas.
     "No sedative, no sleep, please, don't, don't, don't!" screamed Sale, trying
to get up. "You - don't understand!"
     "Take  it easy, old man, you're safe among us now, nothing to worry about,"
said the rescuer above him.
     Leonard Sale slept. The two men stood over him.
     As  they  watched.  Sale's features changed violently. He groaned and cried
and  snarled in his sleep. His face was riven with emotion. It was the face of a
saint,  a sinner, a fiend, a monster, a darkness, a light, one, many, an army, a
vacuum, all all!
     He writhed in his sleep.
     Eeeeeeeee! the sound burst from his mouth. Ahhhhhhhhhh! he screamed.
     "What's wrong with him?" asked one of the two rescuers.
     "I don't know. More sedatives?"
     "More sedatives. Nerves. He needs more sleep."
     They stuck the needle in his arm. Sale writhed and spat and moaned.
     Then, suddenly, he was dead.
     He  lay there, the two men over him. "What a shame," said one of them. "Can
you figure that?"
     "Shock.  Poor guy. What a pity." They covered his face. "Did you ever see a
face like that?"
     "Loneliness. Shock."
     "Yes.  Lord,  what  an  expression!  I  hope  never to see a face like that
again."
     "What a shame, waiting for us, and we arrive, and he dies anyway."
     They glanced around. "What shall we do? Shall we spend the night?"
     "Yes. It's good to be out of the ship."
     "We'll bury him first, of course."
     "Naturally."
     "And  spend  the night in the open, with good air, right? Good to be in the
open again. After two weeks in that damned ship."
     "Right. I'll find a spot for him. You start supper, eh?"
     "Done."
     "Should be good sleeping tonight."
     "Fine, Fine."
     They  made a grave and said a word over it. They drank their evening coffee
silently. They looked at the lovely sky and the bright and beautiful stars.
     "What a night," they said, lying down.
     "Pleasant dreams," said one, rolling over.
     And the other replied, "Pleasant dreams."
     They slept. Шорох прибоя и Звёздный ветер нетерпеливым танцем стихий гарцевали вокруг, сливаясь в едином первоначальном движении. Серебряные, стальные переливы ветвей фрактала радугой шёпота перекликались, играли в Его Золотых Рогах, отзываясь тонким молящим звоном тысячи нерождённых галактик...
Он ждал.
Из конца в конец Вечности.
Ждал...

Ждать целую Вечность умеет один лишь Создатель.
Может быть, ещё Создатель Альтернативы...
Только на его Рогах давно, уже целую Вечность, не было видно сверкающих звёзд.
Вселенная, замкнувшаяся в себе...

Звёздный Олень ждал.
Первое Дитя Нерождённой Вселенной, должное обязать к бытию ТВОРЕНИЕ - от начала времён - к окончанию Вечности...

Последний Звёздный Олень...

Тихая звёздочка вспыхнула сверхновой, сияя посланием - приветствием Повелителю... Грация поклона первому чаду Создателя... Еле заметный поклон головы в ответ - и Звёздная Пыль, опавшая с Золота Рогов, нечаянным порывом Ветра Вселенной уносится вдаль - за горизонт Бесконечности...